Originally Posted by Seahorse
There's a reason I mentioned shamanic healing to you. Because if I can 'see' where your blockages are (not knowing you), what do you think, a shaman, a true healer can achieve in just one session?
'Invest' your money wisely...and, you can condense time. Did you know that? Squeeze it. Use your time smartly.
Also, as to this student, leave it be. Just leave it. You're still investing on in indirect level...let it go... Free yourself.. Walk away from your past. For real.
And get down to the real priority: healing yourself.
Well, I will look into this shamanic healing. I once met a real Shaman. Not a western one, one that lives in the mongolian steppe (where i met him). He actually made it rain. And healed financial blockages.
BTW do you realize you just assumed that all the practitioners Ive worked with are unskilled? Even though I worked with them intensely one on one for so many sessions... Thats kind of funny thing to assume about someone you barely know. I suspet you are seeing a lot of your "old self" in my posts, and therefore feel a need to "save me". I appreciate it, but I may not be as similar to you as you think.
Now about the student.
He called and said he wanted to come by. He did. It was really good for me. WOW!!
I suggested we go for a walk. At first he was distant and cold like he was the previous time. We took a long walk on the beach and then sat in a cafe and talked.
Usually if a guy is cold and distant- I assume it to be "the end" and I feel upset and abandoned, but this time was different. I reminded myself I have more power than I think. I also kept saying- this is working, instead of "It wont/cant work" .
I was connected to myself but also connecting to him. Slowly he opened up.... I told him everything, that I think it was a mistake to go so fast, that if he does come to NY itll be as a friend Im getting to know and not as my bf. That we just should take it easy....He opened up and shared his feelings too.
And then we kissed and kissed again.... it felt good. It felt amazing!
He said through me he learned a lot about what it means to love. He said it was a new kind of love.
yes, maybe he will come to NY. But even if he doesnt, it feels wonderful to have had this experience. I dont even know if he is the one for me. There are lots of differences. But Im opened to it. I told him that Im openned to getting to know him more if he is open to that too.
It was really really a sweet goodbye. With smiles instead of tears...