Originally Posted by Seahorse
Danas, can you just accept that you can't do it all on your own...?
It's just a suggestion to allow for others to actually help you heal rather than trying to do it with just another course...d'you know what I mean?
Yes, I am taking your independence into account, but I also sense resistance of you not wanting somebody more knowledgeable (!) and actually skilled, to help you with what you can't "see"... And I'm talking about energetic blocks that even with the best of 'intentions' you wouldn't recognise even if you tried because shamans truly have a different ability to 'see'; not just your blocks but also other people's "psychic attachments" to your energetic body. And sometimes, these attachments cannot be undone just by your own 'willingness'.
Really, I've worked with shamanism for the last six years and if there's one thing I learned it's that on some levels you can't do it on your own... In spite of your 'mind' telling you differently and making you "think" you know better....
You don't. That's all I can tell you.
There's a reason I mentioned shamanic healing to you. Because if I can 'see' where your blockages are (not knowing you), what do you think, a shaman, a true healer can achieve in just one session?
'Invest' your money wisely...and, you can condense time. Did you know that? Squeeze it. Use your time smartly.
Also, as to this student, leave it be. Just leave it. You're still investing on in indirect level...let it go... Free yourself.. Walk away from your past. For real.
And get down to the real priority: healing yourself.
And to not stop until you feel you've truly turned a corner. It's not all going to be 'happy, clappy, easy, peasy, lemon squeezy'.
That's the biggest difference between the waffling of 'Byron Katie, Eckehard Tolle (urgh!), Vipassana meditation' until your eyes pop out or you're blue in the face, and all the rest of it. Not to mention NLP. These techniques don't go anywhere deep enough.
And no, they don't and won't "heal" you. They just work with your head. That's all.
Healing goes right into centre of your soul. The centre of your Beingness. Your Spirit. Your humanity.
Healing is no cakewalk. If you do it properly. But the rewards are 10 fold of everything put together that you've ever done. I am not kidding. I absolutely mean that. All the stuff you've done, is nice and well but it didn't sort out your deepest issues. That's why.
I told you already, I had the same 'problems'. All that stuff left me wanting. It couldn't alleviate what I felt was just 'not right'.
Your commitment to your own healing is in direct line and proportion to the results you will get out of it. When I decided to heal, it wasn't easy. Goodness gracious, it was hard. And painful. And also, very ugly at times. So you'd better be ready for some very rough patches. But you will be better off after. And that can take years, luv'. It ain't gonna happen in five weeks.
The pain and agony will not subside or dissolve by 'thinking it away' or "affirming" it to be different. That's a cop-out. And cheap and cheating on yourself.
Allow for those who know what they're doing, to help you. Accept true vulnerability instead of neediness.
Do you understand the difference?
And trust that you will be lead to the right people. I don't feel this course is the right path for you... Just a gut feeling... You need the real thing - deep tissue release and cleansing as well as cutting some unhealthy psychic links so you become truly free from your past.
Also, trauma therapy might be a better idea than 'releasing trauma from a break-up' workshop... I intuit that the real reason and root of your trauma lies elsewhere than just that relationship... Something going farther back into your youth and childhood.
The relationship re-inforced that experience. Real trauma therapy is "sweat 'n blood". Just so you know. But it's either that or a life-long 'not being happy' in a "less than the best" kind of relationship.
Choose wisely. Not impatiently - 'in a hurry'. Ok?
Remember to not rush through your healing.
Why do you think I think I do it all on my own?
Ive worked intensely one on one with several practioners
With one I worked twice a week for a year
With another twice a week for 2 years,
and with another I did 15 sessions, 3.5 hours each.
And also had 3 sessions with another practioner
All women btw
You assume a lot of things without knowing me,
No, Im not perfect but I'm not quite the lost soul you seem to think I am....
I just dont talk about it so much.... I take the tools I learn and use them. Not talk about them.
I am not the same person I was when I started my journey.
I have healed so many aspects of myself.
Ive gone through more in my 38 years than people do in a lifetime. But no, the journeys not done, nor is the work....
I totally agree I have a lot of healing to do, but I also dont believe I must be alone until then. My who life I suspect I will be healing...