The best books are those that tell us what we already know...
I hear you. Your thoughts mirror my own. In fact, this was the conclusion that I reached myself just a few days ago when I posted a reply to this thread saying that I knew "what I needed to do".
Don't be a fool. Don't start the cycle again. I know you might be tempted to take what I've said and turn it into another ideal "self" to try and become. Doing that would make your failure certain. Please don't create another illusion in your head to work towards. Everything I have told you cannot be attained. There is nothing you can do to end your suffering. People often forget that, and go off on another wild goose chase.
This is where you got me. And you're right. I did turn my surrender into another battle. Peace from fighting into an ideal to struggle for.
Thank you. Thank you so much.
By the way, may I ask how old you are? It's just that...you seem familiar somehow, as though we've met through the internet before.