I feel better now than when I was younger. I have more moments in my life where I can legitimately say I am happy. May be even joyful. That is completely different from even 3 years ago. I still get into moods though, which is why I am participating in this thread. The night before this thread was started, I was thinking that it was a really good thing that there wasn't a gun in the house as I think I would be more prone to actually kill my self if it was there. I think that is one reason why I'm against gun ownership. It makes things too easy for people to kill themselves. Unless a person has completely healed, I don't think they ever quite walk away from suicide. That option always lingers there as suicide ideation.
Thanks for your concern.
I usually don't share my thoughts on the issue as I think most people would find any excuse and/or delegitmizing technique to get out of listening. I think that is one of the reasons why suicidal people end up feeling alone. People saying stuff like, 'you are too emotional!', 'Emo!', You are not really suicidal, you are just exaggerating!', 'You just want attention!', 'Pull your self together!'.
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Originally Posted by MariconesUnited  Zephyrapalooza! First things first...I really like you and I like what you have to say on most everything. I hope you're doing much better now. Sure seems like it to me, but as RonSouther mentioned, looks can be deceiving. |
I think that is a fair assessment. I get it intellectually, but on some deeper, emotional level, I don't think I've accepted it as I think I'd feel more at peace if I had. I think my thoughts have been influenced by buddhism, but I don't know for certain. I just sort of pick up ideas I hear other people talking about and try to integrate them into my own life.
Are you familiar with buddhist teachings? Can you recommend any texts you think would be helpful?
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Originally Posted by MariconesUnited If you don't mind me saying, I think what you've accepted intellectually you're not yet feeling emotionally. I get the feeling you're inspired by the buddhist approach right? You know that fear you feel when you're intimate with someone? |