12-19-2011, 06:33 AM
Join Date: Nov 2010
Location: Las Vegas, NV
Originally Posted by ChristsLight
I have not posted for a while, because things have been in an upheaval. I think I have said before that healing often requires that things get worse before they get better.
The last month has progressively broken away my defenses, and left me with the certainty that I had no control over my reality. I suppose it is a lesson that I need, but still it was painful. I've posted about some of the struggles here.
This week, it reached its peak, particularly on Friday. It left me discouraged and fed up. I knew it had to be different.
I don't know why, but I energetically observed the situation and the environment around us. I saw a dark curtain of energy that had been surrounding Christine and me. I sent love towards this curtain, and it slowly lifted over a minute or two.
When the curtain was gone, both of us could tell. The atmosphere felt palpably lighter. We felt relieved, less anxious, less stressed.
Over the next two days, I saw significant differences. I saw differences in ChristineŚmore tender, more caring. I saw differences in myselfŚmore patient, etc. My healing ability seemed to increase as well.
I'm not sure what this curtain was, or how it got there, but it was definitely, I feel, a part of what has been going on lately. I suspect it's been a manifestation of all of the stresses from the past several months.
So, it appears to me that it is important to take this kind of inventory periodically, to make sure that there isn't any negative energy weighing you down. When there is, you can definitely tell, and when it is gone, it is very noticeable.
I understand quite intimately with what you're describing and the best advice I can give is to simply die into every moment. Watch as every moment washes clean the death of the moment before it and with it, you too. In this way, no movement of negative energy will ever take hold.