This is beautiful, guys. Thank you so much for revamping this thread and giving such wonderful advice and POV's.
I'm still in a place where I've accepted that I really know nothing at all, but that my personal experiences are given to me in order to grow mentally, emotionally, spiritually, etc. I love this feeling, it is one of freedom and peace, so I think I'll stay here.
I understand why as human beings we have a desire to understand, so I'm done arguing with myself about WHY people get so caught up in meanings and philosophy. It's all about what each person needs at that time in their lives. All of these theories and beliefs that individuals conform to are fulfilling a need for comfort and understanding and allow living in such a way that is beyond the life they were living before. Enriching, if you will, and that's what this entire existence is about. Finding beauty and meaning in everything.
I think what's happened with me in particular is that I've had things thrown at me rapidly that have caused me to question my own beliefs. After playing target dummy one too many times, you just surrender and learn to take it all in as truth and accept that in the grander scheme of things, life, death, creation is beyond control of any human being. Of course we have some control, but those things that are there after us were here before us, and that will not change. I wish I knew exactly what those things are, but I don't, and I'm perfectly happy with that feeling.
So I guess I'm saying just ride the rollercoaster and throw yo hands in the air...and make sure to smile REALLY big for the blurry camera that catches you while you pee your pants on the big plunge.