Originally Posted by krazylearner
Thank you for your reply.
You are right it is similar to my experience about 10 15 percent.But the symptoms are not matching with me.Only the experience (that high energy) and causes(in 1 video).But i think that i have some sort of energy still left in my mind after that enlightenment.That energy is not allowing my mind to think freely.Also my level of enlightenment is very low.
I really enjoyed videos #1, 13, 14 and 21 (or was it 22, whichever one continued on about 13/14). Those were the transformational ones for me. I watched them all and becames online friends with the author.
The Grof book about spiritual emergencies may do a better job of relating to you about your experience. I haven't had your type of experience so I can't do much except guess and point you towards others that may have had something similar.
I do have the experience of clearing out the subconscious mind and freeing up my creativity. In that experience, my world flipped right side up as I was now driven from my heart and not my logic. I no longer could watch the news, no longer read novels, or watch war movies or suspense thrillers because all of it was head driven. All of a sudden, I enjoyed really well done chick flicks and nature shows. My judgment became compassion for myself and for everyone.
Don't bother judging drug use. It's a social stygma. You're alive and well. A joint or two didn't ruined your life or send you to the grave. I'm not saying to use drugs or not use them, I'm just saying what is important is that experience you watched in you, how it opened up a whole other side of life that made life fresh again and interesting.
You got a peek at something amazing. Now what stands between you and more of those experiences is not drug use, but the elimination of habitual thinking given to you by culture and religion. All that creates an ongoing mental confusion that drives us to use drugs to escape this mind that won't shut up. So drugs aren't the long term solution, they just happened to get you a glimpse at your potential.
Sex can have that same effect but neither drugs nor sex = happiness. Happiness happens when you simply get to be you, free of a mind that won't shut up.