Well hi! I haven't posted here in awhile! So hi
I've been exploring BDSM possibilities by going online and talking with others and um... playing with others.
However, I've recently been discovering that I'm being turned on by guys as well or even MTF post or pre. I believe I'm pansexual!
Another thing happening right now is that I'm still depressed of course. Though I'm getting a strong feeling it's caused by lack of social life. I'm really REALLY excited and energized by just talking about sex online. So I'm thinking it's that sex would be a great avenue to feel better and have fun. Though... I feel kinda... dirty for joining a BDSM munch and having sexual fun. Of course I can still socialize, but... it's sex. I'm aiming for sex and socializing and fun. I'm not thinking about using and manipulating people of course.
It's just... it feels strange to want to go into sexual domains when I don't even have any social life.
It's confusing for me! I want to sort it out in my head.