Originally Posted by krazylearner
Physically i am feeling little bit weak . i am frustrated with this.Also i have stopped laughing .I really don't know how to get rid of it.I am not able to concentrate on my studies too.I know that i can't resist the problem or try to pretend that it does not exist.The more a resist or try to forget the more it gets bigger.It is just a one or two thoughts that are stuck in my mind and start their chattering right from the morning since i wake up. It is like ghost in my mind and nothing more.Literally they have taken much of my concentration.
That's an outstanding observation. And please, whatever you obeserve, don't judge it. Just try to learn from it and your statement in bold above reflects learning.
I'm wondering if the "high" created a spiritual awakening of some sort. You may be right that it reprogrammed your subconscious mind or rather purged it of repressed energy and emotions.
Please read this guy's story to see if it rings a little true for you. His story is about a bipolar psychosis but it may have some parallels with your experience. I would highly recommend watching his youtube videos no matter what as 90% of the material is relevant to everyone and covers what you may have experienced. The videos are numbered and best watched in order....10 minutes each....really transformational for me! Bipolar 1 Disorder with Sean Blackwell - Profound-Self-Help.com
Another great read is this book.... Online Store - Spiritual Emergency: When Personal Transformation Becomes a Crisis (New Consciousness Readers)