Originally Posted by Bluth
I think I've realized I'm afraid of change.
Also, that my nervousness as far as going after what I want is do to a lack of self esteem. I was pondering why I was so nervous and at first I figured it was because I was afraid of being judged, criticized or laughed at my others. But I think somehow I was afraid of those things from myself.
Good stuff! Let the realizations pour in. This issue's affected your entire life. Go back in time and jog your memory about all those times this has affected you. Then go back and make the right decisions. Change the memories from negative to positive. You can't change the outcomes, but you can say that now you would choose differently. Now you know what to do. Resolve to do it the right way in the future. It's good to change the past in this way because you build up a nice "history" of events where you chose the right way.