I agree with GreekDog but I'd add that respect is earned rather than commanded. You need to 'earn' your own respect as well as that of others. What do you think someone who you'd respect would look like, act like and so on? What would you get out of being respected, how would it feel? You talk a great deal about the feelings of humiliation but you need to imagine what respect would feel like. If you're able to at least imagine something, it's more likely to enter your life.