Ya I had the Meditation of Light from Merrick&Lenka on Monday I had interesting experinces during and after it and it made a lot of sense once I got the report about other stuff that's been happening in my life and currently going through.. . Since then I don't have the feeling of being followed around AND I don't start shaking hard when I meditate drawing in New energy. . . .but one thing though is that I thought and read a lot(A Whole Lot) about entity attachments and the effects . . .ONLY now I noticed how since that tuesday I felt like I was going mad. .like thought of crazy things like thinking of being possessed and demons are attacking me . .I wasn't sleeping naturally I was sleeping at like 3 and 2 in the morning and so during the days I started feeling "too tired " to do things that I wanted to do. .then I didn't realise that I stopped meditating and exercising regularly (because I would try meditate with white light and start getting that shaking and resistance and I would just give up with frustration) . I then went to victim mentality Thinking stuff like "why me" because I was wondering if I meditate and I am spiritually developing that's supposed to be a constructive positive thing then W(hy)TF am I getting attacked for it . .I was wondering why this didn't happen to Steve Pavlina (so far I've never heard the man talk of getting disturbed by entities at night) . . .anyway I thought ok if keep fearing this stuff now how long will it go ,because I've read stuff about people being scared to sleep because of stuff like this For MONTHS! Or YEARS. .now logically it would be dumb (for me) to get my sleep cycle effed up because of the fear of getting touched or awoken by the unknown at night then this would result in me being too tired to do other important stuff
(exersize , meditation , self development). .basically it messes up the other parts in my life. . .
Now at the time I thought it was a negative entity because of "that" specific uncomfortable feeling I got when it came towards me when I was sleeping. . .now I read that negative entites like try to influence people with negative thoughts and stuff (and if it Was a demon I think I would notice it by now) and so I had been watching my thoughts and I didnt feel or "hear" anything invasive or abnormal to the way I think. . .the only thing was that feeling I got from my stomach area spreading in my body.
What I think I should is to start properly cleaning my aura -Apparently its VERY important -because I have also noticed how my mood and my body's feeling changes when I go to some certain places - sometimes I would go out feeling fresh and energised go to different places then come home feeling heavy and sluggish then when I want start meditating at home I would start feeling tired and end up sleeping . . .
To Tuningin's view about trying to stay calm and just going through. .Now here's something weird on Wednesday night I decided . .I need to stop this cycle of fear(because I don't want to be one of those people who stay like this for months) so I went to bed with EVERYthing switched off but I did have my phone in my hand for quick access to light if I felt something come up . . .now yes I was still a little scared even though I did this . . .it was cool for a few minutes then a had that feeling coming up again from my stomach. .now I was facing away I didn't see anything. . .in the past I would have just quickly reached to switch any light on. . .but I waited for a while to see what's going to happen . . .that feeling in my stomach spread around my back(goose bumps) . . .but I still just waited and some time later the feeling went away. . .now I was still wide awake trying to sleep now the a few minutes later again that feeling came again but I still just chilled and kept still then I eventually turned around with my phone light on to see what's around and as usual there was nothing and the feeling went away . . .this happened on and on for like over and 2hours and then I eventually just got tired of it so I switched on the tv and tried going to sleep . .I slept at around 4:20 into the next days morning. . .anyway before when I felt this presence I was able to tell/feel where it was when I switched on the light by moving around the room and what not. . .now I feel that the uncomfortable feeling isn't as strong as it was before . .and when I do switch on the light I don't feel ANY Presence in my room at all
This sounds crazy but
what I would like to know is that is it possible that I am actually unintentionally creating that energy feeling by expecting to be disturbed in the night by some unwanted energy. .because I don't feel a presence when I switch on the light AND I don't feel the feeling as intense as before. . .
-Anyway I read from sites the importance of aura cleansing and shielding ,I will try it out consistantly for two weeks to see the effects . .because maybe that's what I need to do. . .and I was feeling good this week and made sense of some stuff in my life and also having "synchronities" since monday. . .anyway I plan to try ignore any uncomfortable feeling tonight while sleeping . .and think about positive things and see how I go.