| | Day 15
This kind of healing can be instantaneous or quite protracted. Unfortunately for me mine seems to be the latter.
I am very thankful to have cleared the anxiety/adrenaline phase but I do hate where that has left me - in a state of exhaustion and lethargy.
But because I view this as a place along the healing path I am able to tolerate it.
I find myself in a place of extreme loneliness as I deal with healing the rejection and abandonment. One of the things about this healing process that I have experienced is that as I enter a phase of healing the experience is felt more acutely, more intensely. Right now the feelings of abandonment and rejection are intense and excruciating. There is such a feeling of worthlessness that accompanies all of this as well.
I will persevere because of my hope for what might be on the other side.