| | Day 12
Pressing forward in creating order.
This morning I felt my trapezoidal muscles clinch tightly and I knew that for my entire life that clinching was an automatic tension done in response to the wretched release of epinephrine and nor epinephrine. Over the years that has created such tension and exhaustion.
I am now using supplements to support my thyroid and adrenals, EFT for the resistance/shutdown/adrenal release concerning creating order, along with Schwartz' 4 Steps.
As I do this I grow stronger while simultaneously seeing more and more of what has been repressed and suppressed. As that repression is lifted the pain surges. It feels like a bloody battle field. I keep going healing one step, being battered in another. It feels like zero sum but in truth there is great progress - just so much more to go and that is why the results feel like no progress.
I must hang tough and keep going. Reaching out for support and encouragement.
Today I get to do something different. I am pushing myself through paralysis. Schwartz says that action is the key to changing the brain structure. For the past hour I have been taking a break but I want to push myself forward and accomplish two more things before hanging it up for the afternoon. This is where I slip down low into oblivion. The key today is to push forward. That is where the healing is.
Last edited by Greek Dog; 12-12-2011 at 05:56 PM.