[evandangie]

Hi all,

I've had an idea rolling around my head for a while, just a little background first... I was about to post a status update on Facebook yesterday about enjoying a visit with my dad and stepmom when I stopped to think (automatic reaction) how my mom would feel/respond if she saw the post. For some reason, this was a really strong trigger for me re: how much I censor myself, and how much I try (and fail) to live the life I feel I'm supposed to live. My life path has been anything but ordinary, but the flow has been sort of staccato, gets interrupted, and I feel confused about what I really want in my life.

I guess what I'm getting at here is that in order to get to where I want to be, it's not about trying to be the person I think I should be, or that I think others think I should be, but about being truly, honestly, uncompromisingly myself. Which scares the sh#t out of me, because some of the past adventures have been completely uprooting and kind of exhausting. But I want to be as crazy and vibrant as I truly am, I want to live apologetically. I feel like my whole life I've been creeping around, trying not to ruffle any feathers, but the ME inside has gotten a bit lost and drown out.

So all of you out there- any stories about getting to a place of being truly yourself, how it feels, what needed to be overcome to get there? I would love to hear your thoughts!