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Originally Posted by SethWilliams  Hmm, this thread is rather though provoking.
Thinking about, I resist letting myself succeed. I almost scafed of what it would be like if I did. ITs the unknown, i know what its like to have an average life-style. ITs comfortable.
"IF I succeeded, what would I live for then?" Kind of thing. |
I don't know if this is how it works for you, but for me, it's not how will I be after succeeding and getting rich and all that, but how will others act toward me. I'm fine with money in my bank account. I once had the experience, though, of an idiot account manager seeing my rent money and trying to get me to withdraw it and invest it. He refused to take no for an answer (until I started screaming it in front of everyone in the bank). So there's a fear in me, drawing these people to me as evidence, that if I have money, others will try to take it.
And as I wrote that I realized that could be another issue. I've had to borrow money to survive and go deeply into debt, and I wonder if part of it is based in the two ideas that:
1) Once I get money, it goes toward paying back debt, which no one can really argue with, so once I get money, it's safe, no one can take it from me; and
2) Once I get money, I'll have to pay it to other people to pay this debt back, so I've set up a situation in which no matter what money comes in, it's going to other people to confirm that other people always take my money.
Huh.