Thanks guys! I guess I'll also use this thread as a journal of events as well.
Yesterday: Was the last day of my college class, a group of us decided to go to a restaurant/bar. Probably about 8 of us. We were going to order food, and for what ever reason my fear of puking came in and affected my appetite, so I got something small fearing that if I ate something I wanted it would make me puke. And for what ever reason I think this has something to do with the fact that I am not home in a safe place, but out in real life with my friends. I also noticed that I get annoyed when people don't pay attention to what I say. And then somebody else talks about something so simple, and people are giving him attention. But overall I commend myself, I had fun. I had a few funny moments that made people laugh. Had conversations and even had one of my friends say that I'm confident, and cool who doesn't give a crap. Which is great, because that was the goal I was trying to complete while in college and its working.
Also wanted to talk about this. So the past year and I half I have this hocd, which is called homosexual ocd. Which overall makes you rethink that your turning gay, so you get anxiety thinking about it. Mind you during highschool I did think about girls a lot, like any other guy. But my sex drive pretty much sucks. So a question for the guys. What is the most you can masturbate a day? I can only do it every other day with it feeling good. But I have a feeling this anxiety is hampering that. I just want to know if I am considered normal. If I can figure that out, I can probably shutdown this Hocd.