| | Week 10 Day 5
Wow - Hard to believe I am nearing the end of this 11 week period. I have made some tangible shifts and I am thankful. I have worked on healing and making changes for several decades and this is the first period of time in which I can see the changes.
To know that there are more changes coming and that I can sit in the place of manifestation on the front in for the first time after 15 years of knowing the value - that is something. I am excited about what is to come. That is such a shift from the crossed finger "hope" that I have lived on.
To have a 4 step process that works every single time and that creates permanent changes - no words for that. To be able to look at anxiety triggers without falling down the hole - first time in my life. Ten and a half weeks in I do not have to sit back and avoid triggers (which still are attached to almost anything) in order to survive each day. For the first time, I know that I can shift out of the anxiety rush into support and love. This must be what they are talking about when they say born again, because I feel like life is new, new, new.
When I get the medicine for the hypothyroid and the adrenal glands - that will be a whole other level yet. I currently am practicing being attentive to the shift as much as I can. When I am alone by nature I go to the anxiety, especially at night when I should be sleeping. I still must continually retrain my mind to the positive but what is remarkable is that I am actually able to do this. When I first started 10.5 weeks ago, this process actually exacerbated the anxiety for the first few weeks. Now that is simply not the case. Each and every time I feel the anxiousness I am able to use the four steps to redirect my mind and brain. As I continue the process and get the endocrine support I expect the occurrence of the anxiousness will shift from incessant to seldom or rarely. THAT will be the real life change. That will allow me to make plans without fear that anxiety shut down will make it impossible to follow through. That is when true order will emerge. Week by week I see the transition. Week by week I have one success after another.