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placebo · 11-15-2006, 12:54 AM

One week did past since i started this thread. I've been thinking about this topic a lot during this period. I've been also thinking much (maybe too much) about PD in generally.

And yesterday i visited a friend and we smoked a joint. I didn't want to stay long at his place, i wanted to use this expirience like never before. So I said bie to him and went for a walk to my flat.
I was feeling so present while walking, like i've made a leap and finally figured it out what leap really is. Usually it takes me about 15 minutes from his place to my but that evening i felt i could walk for days. Like Forrest Gump when he started to run across the USA. With no particular reason. Just to clear my mind. When you're not high and walk down the street you probably don't think too much about strangers that are passing by. But when person is high he notices everything and has judgements over everything.

So i started to observe myself and my thoughts and try to explain them to myself on aware level.

1. I've noticed that is hard to walk towards people. Reason is that when not high and walking I always think about stuff and while being high i was present at that moment. I'm living in Now. So it is weird socializing with people who are not high. We're on different evels of awareness. And in my opinion that is the reason why many people noticed loosing social skills when they smoke weed. After explaining that to myself that walk became easier and relaxed, and passengers haven't been entering in my thoughts any more.

2. thing that i've noticed is that i was walking so fast. While other people were walking slowly (or normal speed) i was in some kind of hurry. But didn't have any reason to hurry up so it intrigued my mind. I've realized that i'm not running instead of walking only now. I'm doing that since i know that i'm alive, I was always just walking from point A to point B in a shortest possible time. And it is stupid to live like that, especially because i don't have a car and everywhere i go i walk. I was missing all that beautiful things that was happening on the streets, passengers chatting with each other, insecurities on their faces when you look them in the eyes. It was very sad thought. Thought about wasted oportunities. Then i've tried to walk slowly and it was weird in the begining but eventually i stared to enjoy and decided that this is my new tempo of living. There's no necessity for running through your life.

3. I was walking behind some young couple. They seemed to be in love, so i've decided to be a spy and listen what are they talking about. And guy was treating her like a little baby, he talked foolish acting like a 10 years old boy.
And she liked that. She liked that very much. It reminded me of David DeAngelo and Mystery and re-convinced me that is the way it should be. You must treat girls like...girls.
Do not expect them to become your friend, just play the game. Eventually one will become a firend but until then...

It was very productive evening to me and i'm sure now. I wouldn't trade ganja for anything.

11-15-2006, 12:54 AM	#33 (permalink)
placebo Senior Member Join Date: Nov 2006 Location: No where Posts: 189	One week did past since i started this thread. I've been thinking about this topic a lot during this period. I've been also thinking much (maybe too much) about PD in generally. And yesterday i visited a friend and we smoked a joint. I didn't want to stay long at his place, i wanted to use this expirience like never before. So I said bie to him and went for a walk to my flat. I was feeling so present while walking, like i've made a leap and finally figured it out what leap really is. Usually it takes me about 15 minutes from his place to my but that evening i felt i could walk for days. Like Forrest Gump when he started to run across the USA. With no particular reason. Just to clear my mind. When you're not high and walk down the street you probably don't think too much about strangers that are passing by. But when person is high he notices everything and has judgements over everything. So i started to observe myself and my thoughts and try to explain them to myself on aware level. 1. I've noticed that is hard to walk towards people. Reason is that when not high and walking I always think about stuff and while being high i was present at that moment. I'm living in Now. So it is weird socializing with people who are not high. We're on different evels of awareness. And in my opinion that is the reason why many people noticed loosing social skills when they smoke weed. After explaining that to myself that walk became easier and relaxed, and passengers haven't been entering in my thoughts any more. 2. thing that i've noticed is that i was walking so fast. While other people were walking slowly (or normal speed) i was in some kind of hurry. But didn't have any reason to hurry up so it intrigued my mind. I've realized that i'm not running instead of walking only now. I'm doing that since i know that i'm alive, I was always just walking from point A to point B in a shortest possible time. And it is stupid to live like that, especially because i don't have a car and everywhere i go i walk. I was missing all that beautiful things that was happening on the streets, passengers chatting with each other, insecurities on their faces when you look them in the eyes. It was very sad thought. Thought about wasted oportunities. Then i've tried to walk slowly and it was weird in the begining but eventually i stared to enjoy and decided that this is my new tempo of living. There's no necessity for running through your life. 3. I was walking behind some young couple. They seemed to be in love, so i've decided to be a spy and listen what are they talking about. And guy was treating her like a little baby, he talked foolish acting like a 10 years old boy. And she liked that. She liked that very much. It reminded me of David DeAngelo and Mystery and re-convinced me that is the way it should be. You must treat girls like...girls. Do not expect them to become your friend, just play the game. Eventually one will become a firend but until then... It was very productive evening to me and i'm sure now. I wouldn't trade ganja for anything.