| | Day 3
Daily meditations - envision a healing male presence placing his right thumb across my left eyebrow and the right fingers around my left ear and head.
Through his presence the Light of Christ enters.
As memories stream across my vision the trauma and adrenal response are abated and then this morning something which seemed miraculous to me, a glimpse of order ensued. In an instant, I saw that the order that has eluded me is within rather than external. I have known this rationally but in this instant I could see it. I saw how that trauma has created disorder within my brain and the external jumble of my life has been set to match the internal.
In a haze, I saw order being restored in my home. Order cannot be exerted over chaos. The foundation must be orderly. This healing process is bringing order internally. Focus on the healing. All else will follow from that.
As this order continues to be created in my mind and in my brain, I am incentivized to go forward - a marked shift from my life of refrain, restraint, punishment and fear.
Last edited by Greek Dog; 12-03-2011 at 01:06 PM.