How strange... recently I became a real hot mama. I have a nice face and a cute body, but I was too shy to show that off, because I was sexually abused many years ago by a guy who loved my body. This is actually rather common with rape victims, I have learned. They cover up or become less attractive so they won't be raped again, or so they think. Really, rape is about power, so it doesn't really matter how you look....
Anyway, after listening to the Belief Paraliminal CD for a while, I finally realized that I deserved to be as pretty as women who haven't been abused. So, I spent a small fortune on clothes that actually fit, makeup that actually flattered, and so on.
The next day at work, people were actually shocked at how I looked -- in a good way. Suddenly people were noticing me, including good-looking men, and I was, well, I was terrified. I went to the bathroom and cried my eyes out. Fortunately, nothing bad happened that day, or the next. I am building confidence and self-esteem, and my negative thought patterns are changing.
I have come to realize that I can pretty much seduce almost anyone I want -- but I have no urge to do so. You see, my boyfriend of nearly 8 years has loved me and has thought I was beautiful long before I did my makeover. He knows everything about me, including the abuse I've suffered, and he has taught me about unconditional love like no other person. So, this coming Labor Day (also my birthday) I will wear my sexy makeup, clothes, and underwear and seduce him like I've never done before. I don't think seduction is a bad thing in itself, especially since I know my boyfriend wants to be seduced.
Anyway, that was my .02 USD.
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