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Greek Dog · 12-01-2011, 01:46 PM

here is some nasty stuff that has been coming up.

As child I longed to be with my father.
On a level not of this earth here is the exchange that took place between us.
"I long to be with you."
"then you must take on all of my self-loathing and hatred and rage."
"Whatever it takes."
"you will be my servant and be kicked around."
"I can do that."

And I did and meditation is revealing that I have been stuck in that place. I am seeking healing and release from this servile, self-desecrating role.

I know no other way to do this other than through meditation and in seeking healing from others. Perhaps some yoga and or tai chi, qi gong.

12-01-2011, 01:46 PM	#55 (permalink)
Greek Dog Senior Member Join Date: Mar 2007 Location: Deep South Posts: 393	here is some nasty stuff that has been coming up. As child I longed to be with my father. On a level not of this earth here is the exchange that took place between us. "I long to be with you." "then you must take on all of my self-loathing and hatred and rage." "Whatever it takes." "you will be my servant and be kicked around." "I can do that." And I did and meditation is revealing that I have been stuck in that place. I am seeking healing and release from this servile, self-desecrating role. I know no other way to do this other than through meditation and in seeking healing from others. Perhaps some yoga and or tai chi, qi gong.