things come together?
The episode with Reefs getting the boot and the ensuing discussion made some stuff bubble up for me, because there were some aspects of it I related to, although in a different way.
With Reefs, it was choosing to enter into a contract of sorts (becoming a member here and agreeing to follow the forum guidelines), then spending a fair bit of time rebelling against those guidelines and acting like the guidelines are out of line.
This reminded me of how I behave in my financial life. I can't get a handle on how this started, or if that matters (though it seems to) . . . but I approach finances that way. I enter into a contract of sorts and then I don't pay my bills on time. I owe everybody money because I always figure I can pay it back right away and then I can't.
Zenn asked where my focus was for three years. I'm not sure about three years, but looking at this year in particular, I can see that even though I did very well up until the past couple months, I could have done a lot better. It's like there's a complacency where I'm not compelled to accomplish at a certain level unless it involves a financial crisis. That's a reason, I think, that a lot of what I did wasn't "inspired action." I realized it was strange even while it was ongoing that I always had just barely enough to pay current bills, even if I hadn't consciously figured out what was due that particular week.
Now, though, it's taken a different twist, where I really don't have enough.
There also was one of those mind-bending coincidences involving the current Reefs thread in Fun & Rec. While this was going on yesterday morning, the discussion with the mods etc., I had been thinking of another incident with another member here earlier this year where I strongly advocated not banning this person, and there was a lot of discussion in the mod forum. I finally said I would watch the posting and ban this person if the behavior didn't stop. Le Roi said, "HA! You never ban anybody!" Which of course isn't true, but he knows I really, really hate doing it.
But I was well-pleased that the incident resolved itself and the person even apologized in the thread and has done very well here ever since.
So I got mind-bended when I got an automatic e-mail about a response to the previous thread in question, that I had subscribed to in order to keep an eye on it, and it hadn't been posted in since spring. It's like I conjured up that thread . . . not sure why . . . maybe just a reflection of my thoughts, or maybe showing me that sometimes it does work out.
Perhaps weirder yet, it actually had been posted in a couple times this month, but I never got any automatic e-mails on it until today.
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