[Moriarty]

moonrambler But I'm willing to play with the LoA stuff too, like vibrating with a frequency of abundance and all that.

Amen to that!

There seems to be some unpleasant gunk connected with all this. I'm not sure I create Things Fall Apart because I believe Things Fall Apart, but maybe I get something else out of it. Like -- this issue with the mortgage company -- I really don't want to have so much chaos in my life just to "stick it" to the bank, yet I listened to myself talk about about it and I know there's some vengeful glee going on there

Wow! fantastic! your already beginning to make head-way. Isnt it great when you have others as a sounding board to raise up crapola into your awareness? This is an example of my saying to you about the subconscious sabotaging Now that youve brought it to the conscious mind, you have the opportunity to now change your perspectives on it.

I also feel icky about this sense of entitlement I seem to have, that when I make things fall apart, somebody will bail me out. I'm actually amazed how many people continue to step up and bail me out of this or that

Ahhh..the safety net...

So to answer your question about what aspects don't fall apart -- well, most don't fall apart. I have a lot of very long-standing close relationships with people, for instance. I'm driving a car with nearly 300K miles on it. Even professionally, I've accomplished a great deal in a relatively short time and built upon what I've done previously.

It's the money situation (once again) and because of that, the house, where things are falling apart

What one feels internally, is reflected into their external world. Perhaps now is the time to look deeper into why you feel your 'falling apart' and work on that to change things round.