Originally Posted by Angela
Yeah. The great news is that *faking* being relaxed and trusting, by which I mean just going ahead and relaxing and trusting, even though you don't really have good reason to, helps your unconscious mind authentically feel relaxed and trusting, in an upward spiral of attraction.
Y'know what's interesting about this is that I felt like I was really faking it real good. I spend a lot of time in perpetual crisis mode, but in general, hardly anyone, if anyone, would ever know it. I haven't talked about money issues here in a really long time (I don't think).
But . . . in this case, I guess I have to fake it to the universe, not just to other people. And boy. That's something different. That means I actually have to conjure up the actual feeling rather than just pretending.
Now, if there really is a wolf at the door, or you really do have to do something RIGHT THIS SECOND to get some money or you'll die, being on high alert might be a good idea. But I'll bet you have lots of moments when you're basically ok, right? You have enough to eat, there is no one at the door with an eviction notice, you have a blankie to keep you warm. Those are good moments to practice getting yourself into upward spiral -- into the vortex, as some might say. Practice while it's easy, and that'll make it easier to practice when it's more challenging.
Oh yes, at least half the moments are pretty content/peaceful/relaxed, and it's not an immediate crisis. It's the fear of an impending crisis that I keep feeling that I have to head off. So I spend an hour or two feeling content, and then zing -- "oh no it's going down to 38 degrees tonight and if this goes on much longer etc." Boy, I go all over the place with that one.
I have this weird mix of emotions, and have had for quite some time . . . believing things will be okay mixed with being afraid of impending crisis. And also, the idea of believing things will be okay, and then if they turn out not-okay, will get me in trouble, like moriarty raised the issue of being too complacent.