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Originally Posted by Angela   You made me laugh out loud.
Let's see.. I was wondering about why you wanted to use an LoA/IM perspective in this matter.... for what purpose? It seems like you're creating "things fall apart" even inside LoA/IM -- like you like the perspective and are attracted to it and sense that it's valuable, and yet when you really start practicing it, it falls apart. |
I wanted to use that perspective because it seemed like that perspective helped turn my finances around. You know I don't really go for the "Law" of "Attraction" concept as stated, although maybe it's semantics. I tend to think of it as a method of creation. But I'm willing to play with the LoA stuff too, like vibrating with a frequency of abundance and all that.
There seems to be some unpleasant gunk connected with all this. I'm not sure I create Things Fall Apart because I believe Things Fall Apart, but maybe I get something else out of it. Like -- this issue with the mortgage company -- I really don't want to have so much chaos in my life just to "stick it" to the bank, yet I listened to myself talk about about it and I know there's some vengeful glee going on there.
I also feel icky about this sense of entitlement I seem to have, that when I make things fall apart, somebody will bail me out. I'm actually amazed how many people continue to step up and bail me out of this or that. Like Neighbor Buddy and everything he did around here last week. And I don't tend to reciprocate on an even level. He called this morning and said he was going to town and wanted to know if I needed anything. I said I need a bag of ice for the fridge. So he brought that over and hung around for awhile, and when he was about to leave, it crossed my mind that he probably wouldn't care if I didn't pay him for the ice, and then I thought to myself, "What is WRONG with you?"
So to answer your question about what aspects don't fall apart -- well, most don't fall apart. I have a lot of very long-standing close relationships with people, for instance. I'm driving a car with nearly 300K miles on it. Even professionally, I've accomplished a great deal in a relatively short time and built upon what I've done previously.
It's the money situation (once again) and because of that, the house, where things are falling apart.