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Originally Posted by moonrambler  I would like to look at this from an I/M or LoA lens, as that's the focus with which I have pursued my financial goals over the past few years.
My income started going steadily up about a year into this pursuit (well, not steadily, more like two steps up, one step back, two steps up, one step back, and so on, but still excellent progress). By this summer, everything was completely on track to pay back all the money I owe, which is a lot, but is a whole lot less than it was a few years ago.
Then, blam, my work supply ran out this fall. And my income got cut by about 2/3, and I have not figured out a way to boost it back up substantially.
During all this, my house is a mess. I have taken very little time to clean, and it's very cluttered, and I haven't paid much attention to stuff that needs maintenance or repair or replacing, because there hasn't been the extra money to deal with it.
In addition, sometimes things seem to "just happen." I had one of those this past week. There was maybe nearly an electrical fire connected with the washer/dryer combo, which I was not running at the time. My friend who lives closest and also has a lot of experience in home renovation rushed over. I had already shut off the circuit breaker, and he went to unplug the dryer. When he did that, there was a power surge and all the lights went stadium and I said holy crap. Then the breaker box started humming and buzzing, and he rushed over and flipped off the main switch.
Something is screwed up in the wiring that unleashed the 220 voltage from the dryer into the 110 wiring. There's another breaker box for the addition, basement and garage, so I still have electricity in part of the place.
The house also needs a new roof and now I don't have a functioning washer/dryer. And I'm out of propane, so can't run the furnace. I've got space heaters, but can only run them in the area where there's electricity! The kitchen electricity is off, so now my refrigerator is functioning as an icebox with bags of ice.
Anyways -- in an I/M or LoA lens, I have been really wondering WTF.
There is one nagging aspect to all this. I got way behind on the mortgage in 2007/2008 or thereabouts, when I got into the financial trouble. So now there's always back payments owed that I don't seem to be able to clear up. The bank (not the servicer) does not do any modifications on any mortgages whatsoever. The servicing company and I have been working on this all this time. They put me on repayment plans and I manage it for awhile but then something (like this latest debacle) screws it up. They set up a modification under the government plan a couple years ago and we did the three-month trial, but the bank wouldn't go for that either. This year, I have been getting so mad, that I had a running thought for awhile that I would just stick it to them and walk away.
It makes me wonder if, seemingly out of my control, my subconscious mind or whatever is working very hard to fulfill this mission and make sure the bank is really stuck . . . with a house that needs a new roof and doesn't have any heat and now 3/4 of it doesn't have electricity either.
I don't know where to go with this. I have felt so defeated and beaten down this week. |
I'll take a shot at the electrical problems you had, since I had some heavy duty problems with my ABS computer that controls the breaks in car. The problem with my car was the wires in the electrcal system had just gone crazy and it cost me alot to get it fixed. I had sat down to ponder this whole thing, since in the past I've noticed that car problems for me very often reflect some type of inner change going on.
As it turns out, I did have alot of stuff going on with me as far as ascension changes in my body and mind, which were very hard to handle since it felt as if someone was upgrading my body electric, sure enough right after that my car problems showed up.
In light of what I just said, try to figure out if these problems seem to reflect any inner changes you're going through or perhaps some inner upgrades (DNA changes) which I think just about everyone here on the board is going through. I know this doesn't play into the LOA stuff... but I do think "high strangeness" lately in many people's lives is VERY directly related to inner changes and the new ascension energies.
Even your loss of income could be some type of massive restructuring of your outer life, in preparation for something new to come to you, which is very similar to how ascension changes take place.
I see this happeneing to many, many people these days, so what you described in your post is very "fitting" if you ask me with the current energetic climate we're going through.