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Originally Posted by Angela  You know, in addition to choosing better feeling thoughts, I would also look boldly at how you've been at cause in creating now as it is -- what choices have you made both consciously and unconsciously that has life occurring the way it does now?
I was just thinking about my hernias, when they were first diagnosed, I was very WTF? about the whole thing? How did I create this? And when I looked for the root cause, I saw that for the entire year or so before my diagnosis, I had been springing leaks all over the place -- there were "holes" at the core of my life: my car, my apartment, my bank account all seemed to have holes in them that I left unrepaired and leaking.  And going back even further, I had a hole in my relationship with Danger Man -- a "rip" that occurred that I didn't take care of right away, but hoped it would take care of itself. Right around the time when the Danger Man rip happened, that was when I had the very first tiny symptoms of what were the first of the hernias, and I didn't do anything to repair those, either. |
It's interesting that you talk about leaking as signs of your underlying issue. Did you uncover the underlying issue though? Like, creating a happy life through LoA shouldn't lead to all those leaks, should it?
Anyway, it's interesting because I have had an ongoing theme my entire life with water leaking into where it doesn't belong. This started with my childhood home situated in a place where rainwater would run into the basement during storms. And it's interesting because I'm well aware that electricity is a lot like water -- it flows, with current. And essentially, with this problem, there was too much electricity going where it doesn't belong.
Oh, also this --
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Originally Posted by Angela You know, in addition to choosing better feeling thoughts, I would also look boldly at how you've been at cause in creating now as it is -- what choices have you made both consciously and unconsciously that has life occurring the way it does now? |
I don't know, hon. I have thought and thought and thought so much about all this over the years and analyzed it up and down and sideways and no matter what . . . things fall apart.