i think i'm in all three -- is that possible??
i mean, in the grand scheme of things, i think i'm definitely in "growth mode"... i have more clarity and drive now than ever before. i know exactly what i want to do with my life. i understand that i have a purpose.. and i have a general idea of how i'm going to fulfill that.
but at the same time, there are days when i feel like i'm in "survival mode"... because i'm in this weird transitional state... nothing is really stable right now... i'm not sure where i'll be living this time next year... i'm still a broke college student...
(not literally broke.. but you know--not a millionaire yet. )
i'm just not quite at the point where i can fully devote myself to my main life goal. i have to get through this tedious transitional phase to be able to do what i want to do... so even though i am working my way
up to something greater, i occasionally feel like i'm just trying to "survive."
and
then there are also days when i feel like i'm "floating."
being in college, i'm surrounded by people who want to "do as little as possible" and "have as much fun as possible."
a lot of them don't think on the same level that i do, but i do want to have fun with people my own age... so sometimes i give in to that. ...and today was one of those days.
i was ridiculously lazy and laidback, and couldn't care less.
but i think i have 5 growth days for every 1 "survival" and "floater" day.
so i'm not worried.