Wow yeah you hit it on the head a few times.
The hardest part is knowing no one will believe you while the other guy is truely being a total jack ass and no one knows it. No one would believe me.
I have a friend though who trusts my judgements on people. He always goes to me for advice on people and girls. I dont know if he thinks I have a gift or not but hes a very skeptical person and probably wouldnt believe me If I told him
About the residue you fight with for the rest of the day.
Although I have the ability to dump the emotional residue from situations.
Sometimes I can do it while in the crowd sometimes I need to be alone to concentrate enough.
I just pretty much build it up in my chest and let it go like a sigh of relief. Im not exactly sure how I do it but I think it developed from dealing with too many negative thoughts toward me at once one day and it was weighing me down and making sluggish. I went into my bathroom at work where it was quiet and just tried to fight it off but it was of no use.
I seen alot of japanese things of tai chi and flow of the body so I just imagined all the negative feelings and channeled them into my chest and just let them go. I would go insane if I had to deal with all that all day. People take notice that I frequently will leave a group and come back. They think I have a bathroom issue or something, what ever makes them happy and justify it I guess.
All though I dont really believe in chakra or flowing energy of the body I do use the method, I believe its a mental thing more than anything else.
I can feel emotions of people dreaming but I cant feel emotions of people im dreaming about, the range on my sense is I have to beable to at least clearly see their face especially their eyes for a very accurate reading. Strong emotional outbursts I can feel for a bit further away without looking. If im too far away the emotional outbursts kinda fade in the crowd and I cant discern who it is.
Not knowing who the emotions come from is probably one of the harder things to deal with. It happens especially in crowds. I dont know why it bothers me but it does alot. Especially if the emotion is focused toward me.
Its hard to go out with my current group of friends because a certain holds alot of hate and jealously toward me because of something that happened a few years ago that he did to him self. And its very strong and its hard to block out. They range from everything from wanting to punch me in the face to wanting to tell a dirty joke about me. Outwardly though he seems nice and everyone likes him, but hes horribly dark in the inside and singles me out alot for the brunt of his jokes and hes ALWAYS on alert for me to slip up and say something he can attack. Its difficult being around him because im always on the defensive, but strangely i have some need to appease his emotions and make him happy toward me. Is it stockholmes? who knows....
But anyway its nice to know im not the only one and if you have aim or something I would love to talk one day, you seem to go through the same stuff I do and I would love to discuss it further.  |