My approach to life is that I'm the guy with the job of making my dreams come true.
To do that I had to wake up, and one facet of my awakening was to accept the possibility that there are no gods to hear or answer prayers. I am the one who must hear and answer my own prayers. And I better be careful about what I "pray" for, what dreams I go after, because I might just get them. I am not trying to be funny. Your question is serious and so am I.
Not sure if you can open yourself to any of this, but if you can, here are a few suggestions that have worked well for me in my life. Some of them came from the I-Ching, which in itself might turn you away, but here goes anyway:
If you are not familiar with the I-Ching, ask Google. Or search these forums. Basically, you try to identify a question that reflects your true state of mind. In your case, it's "Why are some prayers not answered?" and "Why can't I get a job?"
My experience with the I-Ching is that those are not the right kind of questions. Like prayer, be careful of how you word your questions, and try not to ask self-indulgent ones, which, like most prayers, tend to be "Oh God, help my team win the game." Or "Please god, take this cancer away."
"Should I take this job with ABC Industries?" for example, treats the I-Ching as if it were a game, a god or a guru that can answer your question for you. Instead, ask questions that challenge you to answer the question from inside yourself.
If I take this job, will I get what I really want?
Will it put me on or take me off a path with heart?
Where would my skills best fit into the lives of other people?
What job am I qualified for that would enhance my sense of inclusiveness?
Pretty sure you could do a better job than I can at finding a question that gets an answer from the god in you...
--Bill
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