Someone told me to try tantra courses. Really good idea.
I'm asking everyone I can think of about this. I wanna be really open for inspiration to come to me, even through unexpected channels.
I chose this wording for what I want to manifest today:
"I manifest a non-serious relationship with a voluptuous type* woman which will allow me to explore joy, polyamory and my own desires."
*"voluptuous" being the best word for the sort of body type I want...
Non serious because I just broke up and well.. yeah. That and "explore my own desires" are there because I'm not entirely sure what I want for a longer term relationship, but I can have fun and also learn more about what I want with a less serious relationship.
I added "joy" too because I feel that I want to learn about taking life lightly and joyfully and playfully. I want to dump this "life and death" energy and start living like not even death is "life and death". Maybe a person who embodies the energy I'm looking for will help.