I've just read about Steve's polarity idea. It seemed kind of hokey to me at first, but then I realized how devoting myself to one polarity could give alignment and focus to my life.
I think my path is that of darkworker. It makes sense to me to serve myself, since I am the one thing I take with me everywhere I go. Other people are not always there, but I always am.
However, one thing does not resonate with my personal experience: the idea that darkworking is the alignment toward fear. It seems just the opposite to me. The thought of devoting myself fully to my own development and fulfillment
banishes fear. If I am totally committed to serving myself, I can place total faith and trust in myself. I am the maker of my own world, so there is nothing to fear.
If I am completely devoted to serving myself, then I don't have to worry what others think of me. Their opinions don't matter. Social anxiety vanishes in one shot.
I also don't find fear to be a good motivating factor for myself. Whenever I try to motivate myself using fear, anxiety and other negative emotions, it always backlashes. My inner labor union goes on strike.
I think it's more consonant with the ethic of self-love to motivate myself with positive reinforcement.
If I think in terms of seeking my own personal excellence and advancement, I realize that fear is nothing but an obstacle and impediment, and I might as well let it go.
As for lightworkers being non-fear based, I've found that in many cases that's not true. The people I characterize as "liberal do-gooders" -- pardon the stereotype, but I've encountered many examples of this category -- are often strongly motivated by fear, guilt and limitation mentality. Their rhetoric contains a lot of alarmism and fear-mongering: people had better buckle down, tighten their belts, and sacrifice their personal interests to the common good, otherwise a lot of bad things will happen -- global warming, mass starvation, nuclear war, etc. The call to selfless self-sacrifice is often based in fear-ridden doom-mongering, as can be seen in many historical events of this kind. "How can you think of yourself at a time like this?"
When I think of myself as totally safe and secure, and know that ultimately nothing can ever harm me, then I feel free to go for what I want and fulfill my desires. I have no need to serve others in order to "earn" peace and safety, because I already have those things in myself. I can go for the gusto, be free to take risks, because I know that whatever happens, the essential me is eternal and indestructible. Since life is abundant, not scarce, I can take what I want without having to worry that others might not get their share. I know there is enough for all, so I might as well get mine first.
When I was a young child, I lived in this state of complete security and freedom most of the time. I was a born darkworker, in the literal sense, and I consider this the time in life when I was closest to being my true, essential self. Then, as I got older, I became sidetracked by fear, guilt and anxiety motivation absorbed from society, and came to fear that my darkworker tendencies were "wrong". This led me away from my true self. I feel that my path now is to get back to what I truly am, to the person I was in my earliest years -- and learn to bring that quality into my life now, integrate it into my existence as a mature adult.
I'm curious what people think of all this. How do you think fear motivation does (or doesn't) relate to being a darkworker?