[jaamkie]

My first post here- I've been in Floating mode for the past several months- I graduated from college last year and got my first job, moved to an apartment, and have been basically floating along, at least in terms of external accomplishments (and while some would say its an adjustment to go from college to self-sufficient, I had an awfully easy transition- to a good paying computer/consulting job when I studied CS, to an apartment still near my family and in the area I've lived my whole life, and I've been independent and able to take care of myself for quite awhile now). I feel like its a conscious floating mode though, with a big focus on figuring out who I am and what I want in life- I've always been a worrier/dreamer focused on making a huge difference in the world, so I made a commitment to myself to live in the moment, have new experiences, become more social and fun-loving, and figure out what I want. I consciously decided to postpone my high expectations for a year and not stress too much about work or performance evaluations, not commit to too many new things, and not put myself under pressure to do more than comfortably exist (which is a pretty easy task).

I feel like so far its been a really really good thing for me- I do feel like I've grown internally and am able to relate to people better and have a clearer view of what I want in life. As much fun as I've been having, I don't think I'm floating in the negative sense- I'm exploring new things and for the first time in my life really enjoying spending time with people socially. I definitely plan to take some time this winter evaluating where I'm at and making some new goals/choices and move into a more active Growing mode. Also, since I don't have any debt and tend toward living a simple life, I've been saving a large percentage of my income, so it will be there if I need it when I do reevaluate and maybe decide to make some changes.