I realize that I have manifested a lot of what I set out to. Its pretty amazing.
Im living with a man, Im doing what i love to do and getting paid, I live by the sea, and lots of great things are happening in my career. I've been given time to work all day and night on my art and there's a whole team supporting me all around the globe. Even the mayor of the town said he'll do anything in his power to make sure I can do whatever I want.
The dynamic with the man I live with is interesting. I was disappointed by something he did in my last entry here, but since than Ive worked on my own self love and happiness, and now we have a good, fun, supportive friendship.
I seem to have been able to manifest romance very easily. But a relationship has been harder to manifest. So now Im working on the relationship, without the romance part- which is really what I need work on.
Also the house which was a total mess first 2 weeks, has now stayed immaculately clean for a week!
Its like we both see it as our sanctuary and its important to us to keep it clean.
That amazing for me, because I've always had this belief that I would never find a man bc Im so messy.
My parents, siblings etc always made it clear that I lack that "womanly" trait to maintain a household.
So In the past decade Ive always had a cleaner, but this never helped change that belief, it only reinforced it. Bc even the cleaners thought I was too messy...
But here Ive proved to myself that Im totally capable of keeping the house clean and beautiful....Everyday I sweep and clean and do the dishes. No big deal.
Also I bought myself a beautiful nightgown. instead of old worn out PJs which I would be too embarrassed to wear with a partner...
So I feel like the angels sent me this roommate, so I could imagine, prepare and test out my relationship skills, after living alone for so long.
Also I notice my sixth sense has been very strong. Because my mind is quiet.
Im literally having dreams that are prophesies of events that happen the very next day.
So, this is giving me a lot of trust in the process, I feel like the whole universe is setting out to help me manifest my wildest dreams.
This weeked I engaged with 3 women. All 3 mothers. All in their 50s, all with 3 children. All 3 were mothers to 2 boys and one girl.
I wonder why I met and spent an evening in 3 different situations with these woman (and their husbands).
Maybe to show me an example of where Id like to be in 15 years in the family aspect. Id love to have 3 kids and be happily married. It showed me what motherly love and care was (something I didnt grow up with as my mom left us when I was 15), and how their husbands lovingly supported these 3 women. It was 3 different examples of a well functioning families....
Ive met a few men in the past weeks. but Im totally happy to just work, so I let things unfold how and when they should, Im not desperate for anything to be different than how it is right now, bc right now things are really good and Im having fun!
Last edited by danas; 11-13-2011 at 12:09 PM.
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