Alex, I'd like to clarify where my comment about a negative frame came from... most of it came from the last paragraph of your post... note the extreme language and the repeated negative framing: "exactly why my life sucks" (I know that one came from Steve's post, but hang on...) "something I have to get through alive" "I cannot say I have any genuine interest" "possibly disastrous consequences" and "suffering through something I have no interest in". It's not so much what you're describing as it is *how* you choose to describe it that was the tip to the negative frame.
Also, note how the alternative to school is not well-defined... there is a running away from something concrete (school), but not a running toward anything in particular. There is an "eventual" finding of a life purpose, but other than an unspecified job, a club, and yoga, there's no real plan. This struck me as pain-avoidance behavior as opposed to pleasure-seeking; ie, action framed in the negative.
These were the things that--in the aggregate--stood out to me and suggested that you are in a negative frame. I certainly would not be offended if you disagree, and I certainly didn't mean to take you aback! There are specific things I look for when assessing potential coaching clients, and I thought I noticed some of those cues--namely the ones mentioned above--in your post.
Please, I hope this helps. I'd encourage you to consider that there might be some negativity hiding "in plain sight" in your subconsciousness right now... and also please consider that my conclusions may be due to an overzealous reading of a single paragraph of yours!
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