Originally Posted by m18pak
But then, something happened, and I fell again. So close to the sun of my arrogance, my wings caught fire and were as ash, and so I fell. So I was punished for my hubris.
But anyway, what do I do? How do I consciously climb up the levels of consciousness? Is there a way?
You are obviously very well read (Icarus analogy), articulate and aware. Given that, you must also know that you have the ability to control your thoughts and attitude. It will take some effort and hard work on your part but you must have the willingness first. There are no easy answers. If you really work at it you can get over your shame. You must have done something you consider to be very awful if you feel such shame. If it's not illegal, immoral or unethical it can't be that shameful.