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Greek Dog · 11-11-2011, 01:09 PM

Hey - ChristsLight, I wanted to let you know what I am experiencing after our healing session. I woke up this morning with a crystalized image of something that has been an obstacle for me for some years.

It was such a fascinating experience. I have been aware of a kind of shadow following me, a dark presence. Since our healing session I was again made aware of how my brain and head lead my functioning with some sort of disjunction with the heart and gut.

As I was thinking about an email I planned to send the book title Whose Got Your Back flashed into my mind and the light bulb went off.

Whose Got Your Back - I grew up in a family controlled by my father who would regularly set us up for failure while using language about love and responsibility and all virtue. He held himself up as having our back while sitting on perch waiting to pounce on any revealed vulnerability, much like a vicious boss intent on sabotage.

As this came into focus I immediately saw how the dark energy of this wounding has attracted more of the same in other aspects of my life, drawing sabotage and set up. No wonder it is scary and difficult to get the strength up to venture out into the world or take on projects that require collaboration.

Our work brought into focus what had been a swirl of confusion about what needs healing.

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Greek Dog Senior Member Join Date: Mar 2007 Location: Deep South Posts: 393	Hey - ChristsLight, I wanted to let you know what I am experiencing after our healing session. I woke up this morning with a crystalized image of something that has been an obstacle for me for some years. It was such a fascinating experience. I have been aware of a kind of shadow following me, a dark presence. Since our healing session I was again made aware of how my brain and head lead my functioning with some sort of disjunction with the heart and gut. As I was thinking about an email I planned to send the book title Whose Got Your Back flashed into my mind and the light bulb went off. Whose Got Your Back - I grew up in a family controlled by my father who would regularly set us up for failure while using language about love and responsibility and all virtue. He held himself up as having our back while sitting on perch waiting to pounce on any revealed vulnerability, much like a vicious boss intent on sabotage. As this came into focus I immediately saw how the dark energy of this wounding has attracted more of the same in other aspects of my life, drawing sabotage and set up. No wonder it is scary and difficult to get the strength up to venture out into the world or take on projects that require collaboration. Our work brought into focus what had been a swirl of confusion about what needs healing. Last edited by Greek Dog; 11-11-2011 at 01:27 PM.