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Originally Posted by Ghost Of  I consider it, but it would destroy my mother... I can only imagine her reaction if she would find me dead. WHY can I not take my own life if I want to??
Is this something I can talk to her about without freaking the hell out of her? |
Darling I know how you feel. I've attempted suicide before. What I did though eventually was I wrote a letter to my mom, not a suicide letter, just a letter explaining how I feel. How sometimes I don't want to live.. putting it all out into words when I was in such a state of crying and wanting to end it all did help me feel a little better at the time. I put the letter by my mom's room so she read it in the morning. I'm glad I did that, she didn't pressure me but made me realize asking for help isn't a bad thing, if anything it's the stronger thing to do and I'm proud of myself for all the therapy I went through. There were times after I felt that way again, but I learnt from therapy that while the professional did help me, it's talking about things that help the most. Being open, asking anyone close to you to listen. Whether it's a friend of a family member or heck, as online forum. Write your problems, talk about them. Even if people can't give you tips it's letting things out that helps.
Nowadays I feel down at times but even in the past month that's been one of the hardest I've ever been through, I've never done to that dark place again. Knowing where I've been before and where I am now makes me really proud of myself and I wish every person who goes through times like this would get to have this feeling too.