My mom killed herself. I am sure she did it as a way to kill her problems. It worked but created problems for her loved ones.
In that lies a paradox. Logically to her mind, death equaled a way to end her problems. Her logic didn't see how many problems she left behind.
If you want to regain you love of life, you have to take back you life from your mind. Your mind is fatiguing you with a negative self image, with self-desctructive problems, and so on. You problem in life is a lack of understanding about who you really are and what life it. Both you and life are amazing miracles!! But who can even see that when riddled with so many issues.
My mom didn't have a source of profound perspective to help her grow from ignorance to intelligence. I have thought of dying too, not because i hate life but because I'm looking at another 50 years of being a slave to my body. It's perfectly normal to think of death as a way out but just remember thats a statement of logic and life is not logical. You can find your way out...life really is beautiful....for me its beautiful when i can flow authentically as my true self and not feel self conscious.