 not depression
I am probably on the other end of spectrum from depression.. Managed to free myself from guilt, and I do feel the energy within. But I fear these earth-shattering things that could happen, once decided to use this energy to change my life. So I rather drain it by psychically fighting and misleading myself, it even sometimes unfavorably affects my physical health. Albeit progress is made, it is two steps forward and one step back every time.
I think something like happens to many people in my country and in Europe as a whole. Here aren't so many people with depressions as, say, in the US. Using the driving analogy, we maybe know how to drive, but we insist to drive in circles. But circle can be changed into a spiral and one may, at last, arrive where desired! |