| | Week 6 Day 1
Past the halfway mark.
During the first few weeks I went on quite a journey, deeloping mindfulness concerning daily issues that have caused me great pain and disfunction for many years.
I kept my focus on the disruptive pain, avoiding the habituated pattern of repressing it or avoiding it. Then I acknowledged that this pain was a manifestation of MY mind rather than anything external. But it is the next two steps where the real work is done.
Up through today I have been focusing on emergency type issues and using this process I have seen manifestations that border on the miraculous or at least the impossible. But these have been like extracurricula events outside of everyday, ordinary life. The foundations remained unchanged. Beginning today I will do the more significant work of altering the foundations.
The order seems backwards in some ways but on examination I get it. It was easy to find the motivation to fully engage in this process for emergencies. They demanded and received my full attention. It is much more difficult to give that kind of all emcompassing attention to the daily grind kind of issues. But the other advantage of putting my attention and work into the emergencies is that I got incredible results. I know it works. So now when I have the humdrum issues that need to be transformed, I know that I have a process that does work and one that is valuable enough to put the necessary time, energy and devotion toward overcoming this underlying, baseline resistance that calls me into a lull.