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Originally Posted by Lyman  I loved the analogy of not blaming the car because it won't go through the tree. I'd just add that it's also useless to "blame" the driver. |
But I don't even know how to drive...
While it's not a common point of view seen on this website, I guess since the worst-off people never get to this website, and the people who are where I've been (and could be) emotionally are not very articulate on their experiences, the truth is that there are a lot of people who don't go through mere periods of suicide or boredom, but are born into those negative emotions and never get out, have no idea how to get out and no one has ever, nor ever will tell them, about LoA. I lived my whole life like that, until last January when, by no impressive means, I stumbled upon the notion of intention-manifestation--and I'm still thinking it may have been too little too late for me.
Nobody tells you you are in control of your life. Nobody. And your life experiences point to the contrary, especially when you are at the emotional mercy of people who mentally abuse you 24/7 throughout your entire life from birth.
I have wallowed my fair share in self-pity and more than average in plans for killing myself over the past 20 years. I've even done research on how I want to kill myself, so as not to fail if and when I do it. I have unsuccessfully spent my life trying to change this--nobody wants that kind of existence.
Steve, you left one key point out of your "take action" solution. I have in fact taken action in attempts to change my situation to get out of the suicidal inclinations (not a fleeting period, but a 20-year (and counting) state--it's always a viable option in my mind, but it's not my first choice), to get to a state where I can enjoy life. My whole adult life consists of actions I have taken in attempts to change my situation. The problem is, when you are born into sh*t, you live your life in it, you ... I sit in my life, miserable, I take action, I move to this country, that country, I change scenes, I change cultures, I find new people the world over--yet, because I don't even know how to drive in the first place, I keep crashing. I have taken action. I have done more things in my 39 years than lots of people do by the time they're old and gray, and crazy things, at least I'll admit to this most recent one being crazy, things people will tell me are impossible and I can't do or I am stupid for doing, or I will die or get hurt doing (hasn't happened yet). No matter what new thing I set out on, a relationship, friendship or a new country, society, culture, whatever, the results always ended up catastrophic. Taking action=more catastrophe.
Taking action to get out of your misery is not the only element of the solution to your suicidal, bored etc. state. (Maybe it would work for boredom, but it doesn't work for suicide/severe depression.) If the other element is learning how to drive (if life
must be a car) my problem is I don't even know how or where to learn to drive.