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Plato · 08-16-2007, 02:23 AM

Over the last few weeks I've worked on refocusing myself as a lightworker and I feel incredibly motivated already to change the world in a positive way. I honestly feel happier and that little thing called conscience has finally stopped whining at me, though I didn't notice it until it was gone.

But now that I've changed my perspectives the crushing weight of all the bad **** in the world has come crashing down... and I don't know where to begin with REALLY making a difference.

It feels like all effort is ultimately futile. I live in youth culture and it disgusts me. I see violence, alcohol abuse (I work in a nightclub, so I see that one A LOT) and mindless destruction everywhere. And what can I do apart from Gandhi's "being the change I want to see in the world?" That only goes so far.

Sure the wings of a butterfly can create a storm on the other side of the world but I don't see how I'm going to get it into peoples' heads that drinking 14 pints of lager on a night out is not big and clever. I was doing it for about a year of my life, and watched as one of my friends died from alcohol overdose and even now I'm struggling to quit drinking.

The solution to this problem is in changing a whole culture. Maybe even human nature. How can I do anything but wave the banner for the way of peace, love and purity like all the people I used to think were retarded cranks?

I'm not trying to make excuses for myself. I really just can't see how I can make a difference except on a personal level by doing nice things for the people around me to make them happier for a short while.

Am I just being pathetic and short sighted here or what?

08-16-2007, 02:23 AM	#1 (permalink)
Plato Banned Join Date: May 2007 Location: in your fridge Posts: 2,018	overwhelming... Over the last few weeks I've worked on refocusing myself as a lightworker and I feel incredibly motivated already to change the world in a positive way. I honestly feel happier and that little thing called conscience has finally stopped whining at me, though I didn't notice it until it was gone. But now that I've changed my perspectives the crushing weight of all the bad **** in the world has come crashing down... and I don't know where to begin with REALLY making a difference. It feels like all effort is ultimately futile. I live in youth culture and it disgusts me. I see violence, alcohol abuse (I work in a nightclub, so I see that one A LOT) and mindless destruction everywhere. And what can I do apart from Gandhi's "being the change I want to see in the world?" That only goes so far. Sure the wings of a butterfly can create a storm on the other side of the world but I don't see how I'm going to get it into peoples' heads that drinking 14 pints of lager on a night out is not big and clever. I was doing it for about a year of my life, and watched as one of my friends died from alcohol overdose and even now I'm struggling to quit drinking. The solution to this problem is in changing a whole culture. Maybe even human nature. How can I do anything but wave the banner for the way of peace, love and purity like all the people I used to think were retarded cranks? I'm not trying to make excuses for myself. I really just can't see how I can make a difference except on a personal level by doing nice things for the people around me to make them happier for a short while. Am I just being pathetic and short sighted here or what?