 Week 5 Day 3
This is just crazy!
I am getting results like nothing I have ever experienced. The changes are subtle and difficult to explain but they are profound - life changing and I am deliriously joyful about it.
I had a presentation this afternoon. I got started working on it very late and simply was not getting the material I needed. I have been very, very stressed about it fearing that I was going to fall flat on my face. Even after I got my notes made it was very, very difficult to get them in order and even more difficult to put them into a coherent prosentation.
I went to sleep last night when I really should have been working on it. I woke up early but rather than get to work I began cleaning on an image from my dream. It took almost an hour before I could get any Peace but I got it. I kept cleaning all day and different things. Step by step I got my notes in order and the paper written - section by section.
I kept cleaning my anxiety, my fear of failure, expectation of rejection and on an on. Tick, tock - 3 o'clock. Time was up and I sat down with my pages typed, cut, pasted, and stapled and began my presentation. Miraculously, the words flowed and the concepts fit together neatly and the whole darn thing made sense. It was a success even though at 7am this morning there was no way it could be.
There was so muchmore than I can convey. There were so many years of junk that were cleaned today. There is so much more to go. But I amm seeing things come into my life that I felt were so far removed. I have incredible hope today.
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