Great detail in your post. I love how you have two different ways to say I Love You. I wish we had that in English!
My advice would be to just let it go... not the relationship- the worry! It is early, and as you haven't gotten to the second "I love you" yet, there's no reason to jump the gun and ponder whether or not it's for real. If the relationship and the girl make you happy now, then be happy now and worry about the rest as it comes.
The fact that you start to question her feelings for you when the physical closeness ends would suggest that it is something inside of you; i.e. you lack confidence in your ability to be loved unless someone is expressing it to you directly. I agree with Peter; you have to find a way to be confident in your lovability (and in case there's any question in your mind about that, we are all lovable!) and secure in who you are. Remember if she thought the things you were thinking to yourself (the doubts about whether your boring) she wouldn't be spend several hours a day with you!
Best of luck in your new found relationship and remember- just enjoy it in the moment.
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