Steve. You're still just plain wrong on this.
There is not a love versus fear polarization. To give in to fear is to negate the entire purpose of polarizing. The whole point is to overcome "Lightworker/Darkworker syndrome," by understanding that those are just two sides of giving in to the same fear.
You need to learn to give or take without fear. That means only giving or taking what is in abundance. For example, I am here to take. What I am taking is freely offered and abundant - Knowledge.
So, is my post giving? Nope. I am more effectively taking knowledge by offering my thoughts and looking at direct feedback. It's faster and more efficient than searching around looking to clarify my thoughts.
Is anyone deprived by my taking? No. This forum is freely offered. In fact, I add to page views which increase your ability to charge for advertising revenue, so I'm not even taking your inexpensive bandwidth. I'm adding a benefit to you.
Steve, you seem to understand giving without fear, but you don't seem to get taking without fear. The last thing you should ever do in order to give without fear is to give what you barely have. You figured this out.
You give knowledge, which you have in abundance. It takes nothing from you to do so, and it feels fulfilling. You realized that time was limited, and money was as well, so you weren't giving those without fear. You gave what was abundant, and now you also have abundant time and money.
Here's another example. I take from my Dad all the time. Taking without fear involves asking, or taking what is explicitly offered freely. It does not equate with stealing, even if you can do so fearlessly.
I ask my Dad to help me with things, and this actually gives him what he wants. He's driven by the need to be needed. Sometimes, out of fear, he creates artificial needs, which gets him into trouble. I create a genuine need for him, thus fulfilling his primary fuel for life. As an added bonus, if he's helping me, he keeps out of trouble.
Fear polarization is not a path to success. Polarization is fearLESS. That's it's purpose. To conquer one fear, and transcend it's other side in the process.