I don't resonate with the term "fear" either, I think (for me at least) the term "desire" makes more sense. Although that'll probably confuse others.
I've been rereading the series on polarity lately and it's making perfect sense to me. I was toiling between the two, even experimenting more in being a dark worker, but that only led down the wrong path. I now understand my path as a lightworker and the more I commit to it, the more the universe takes care of me.
-Back from the brink