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Hi newkaren, yes it only works whilst I'm writing the lists but who wants to write lists the whole time? It's not natural. I have gone through many weeks where I stop the thought and after reading Tolle managed No Thought which was great but none of it lasts, am back this week feeling and thinking the same old things. I.e. This person never gets in touch, this one needs a social life, this one is a bit of a liar...on and on about nearly everyone I know. I do have loving thoughts about these people too and if you knew me you certainly wouldn't think I had a problem as have lots imof friends and am v social, that's why this is so difficult to explain. I am left wishing for different friends and or a better social class (I feel like a snob and ashamed to say this). I wouldn't say any are toxic particularly (one does bs a lot though and everyone says that!) but just not always my cup of tea and leaves me with nobody I can get really very close to. What's worse is that I am starting to not really care. I don't ring people and see them as much as I find my expectations are always too high of people so just can't be bothered anymore. And at the same time long for someone to be good friends with. Reading this I can hear how it sounds. In a nutshell I feel that my thoughts about others are blocking me from manifesting the right people into my life, I have tried appreciation etc but as I say it was temporary and I never really saw anything change. Maybe I need to persevere.

Sorry guys I sound like a broken record on this forum. I know what I'd like to attract, have visualised it, written it down very specifically for years been working on this but think the Universe knows I am just not aligning for some reason?!
The live in person was just an example of me concentrating on the stuff that annoys me and it expanding. I want to change!!!!