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Hey, Eric. You have a friend on this forum first off. Probably many in fact. I know this is not what you meant, but it's a start!

I would suggest looking to your interest and finding a club or group in your area that shares them. I believe that you are fairly young...do you go to school? If so, maybe you could start a Personal Development club of some sort. Or, look to start a Raw Food club. You can also look for existing groups like these in your area. It's likely you could meet some people there who would be more in line with your new self and who might actually help you on your path.

I think you've got the first step taken care of in that you recognize what's going on and you've got a plan in place for what you want. Now, just start taking steps to put into practice some of what you've learned and the things you want to do. And get out of the house.

Good luck. I think you will do great!